I have to just make an effort to come out of my mopey funk.
This morning, before leaving for work, I did some cleaning up in the kitchen. It's amazing how taking a little bit of time to put a few things to rights in the morning can set such a positive and productive tone for the day. Imagine- me actually liking to do chores!
Just a few minutes ago, I went in and had a chat with the woman here at work by whom I felt I'd been "dumped." She's a friend and has been since long before I worked here, but I'd lately been feeling a disconnect that I was afraid was turning into a breakup. It turns out that we had both just been busy and mis-reading the situation. We re-affirmed our friendship with each other and I left feeling better instantly. Actually talking to someone about a perceived problem? What a novel concept!
I have also attempted to cut out negative self talk. Instead of telling myself I'm stupid and fat for thinking about the snack drawer, I'm trying to tell myself I'm smart and healthier for avoiding it. So far it's working.
Similarly, I'm not the lazy ass who hates to do chores, I am the FORMERLY lazy ass who now finds chores invigorating and loves the feeling of accomplishment.
Perhaps this sounds a little silly, but if you could only hear the horrible things I tell myself each day, you'd understand why these little steps are actually really important ones.
I'm sure it also helps that I have new jeans on today and think my ass looks kinda hott.
