Jun 30 2005

Today is our 4th wedding anniversary. I can honestly say that I like and love John more today than the day I married him. And that’s not just the pregnancy hormones talking…

Tonight we are going out to a really nice restaurant. We haven’t been there before, but the reviews and the sample menu sound fantastic. It’s called Eleven and it’s supposed to be “contemporary american” cuisine, whatever that means. I think it just sounds yummy. I’ll give my review tomorrow.

I can’t stop thinking about a comment that the midwife made the other day. She looked at me when I stood up and announced that she loves tall pregnant girls (I’m 5’10″). She said that we’re good pushers (in childbirth). What exactly does it mean to be a good pusher? We can push really hard? We are skilled at pushing? We can push really interestingly? I’m not entirely sure what to make of this. I feel like I have something I have to live up to now but I don’t even know what it is! Can anyone clue me in?

I have my six month review tomorrow. I’m not too concerned but, somehow, not being concerned makes me think I should be. Like everything is going too well. My boss was really nice when he mentioned it to me today though. I don’t know why he’d be upset with me. Almost everyone else around here has told me that they really like me and that I fit in really well. That makes me feel really good because I like most of the people here too. I feel like I fit in pretty well, but having people like me and fitting in doesn’t mean that my boss is happy with my job performance. We’ll see. I know at least that I won’t be getting a raise. No body here gets raises except for upper managment. There is a woman who does a very important job here who hasn’t gotten a raise in 10 years. Nobody really complains because otherwise they’re really pretty good to us. It does kind of suck for those people who have high stress jobs and have been here a while, but I don’t really care for myself at this point. I would keep this job just for the free health insurance (good insurance- for me AND my family, for free)!

Just 14 more days until I have my car!! WOOHOO!!!!!!