Oct 21 2005

I’m very confused and very frustrated. For the second day in a row, I seemed to be in pre-labor all day. It just won’t progress. Be warned- TOO MUCH INFORMATION coming…
I had a spot of blood yesterday, which made me think it was the “bloody show” aka mucous plug (I feel pretty, oh so pretty). I went to bed last night thinking that I would wake up at some point in the middle of active labor. Well, I woke up but not to contractions. I was up for three hours in the middle of the night. All day today I’ve been having contractions, but they’re not very strong and they haven’t gotten longer, stronger or more frequent. They don’t seem to have a pattern at all. They’re making me feel really stupid.

(TMI AGAIN!)Tonight my body…ahem…cleaned itself out, if y’know what I mean. It’s another sign of impending active labor, yet it still doesn’t seem to be moving along. I am really at a loss for what to do which is especially frustrating because I’m sure there’s really nothing I can do. I feel the need to take a more active part in this somehow, but this is one time when my body has the control, not my head. I’ve tried all of the things that they suggest in the books. The thing that has worked best is walking, but I somehow managed to screw up my ankle early yesterday and it really hurts to walk. Does anyone have any suggestions? And if you say to just relax and take it easy I will find you and rip your fucking throat out.

The thing that is the least significant but irritates me the most about not having gone into labor today? That I’ve missed the chance to have him on the 21st- my favorite number in sign language.

But, my sister had her son on the day I guessed so maybe I’ll have mine on the day she’s guessed: the 22nd. That works for me. Now I just have to convince Cole.