Jan 11 2006

My eyes are just a little bit green.

As you no doubt have realized, I have returned to work. I had a temp while on pregnancy leave (can’t call it maternity leave or they’d have to offer it to the men, too) and I had gotten to know her while training her before I left. We got along fine, though she’s a major catholic and I’m an…well, y’know. (See? Our differences aren’t that great. We both still love our kids, eat, poop (though I don’t admit it), drive, laugh, cry, etc…) I left feeling good about the stability of my position when I returned.

Since I’ve been back, however, I’m not so confident. See, they kept her on. In a different capacity, but there all the same. Which means that there is someone else there who knows how to do everything I do. Plus, she took some of my responsibilities with her. I grant you, they were some of the most hated responsibilities and I’m normally grateful for things that allow me to be more lazy, but now I fear for my job. I have about two hours worth of work to do each day. How long will it take for them to realize and cut back on my hours, or worse, cut me out entirely? And I don’t think my boss is too pleased with me at the moment (he asked me to buy football tickets on ebay for him, but after looking for an hour I realized I know NOTHING about football and I was afraid I would spend $1500 on seats out in the parking lot or something and so asked him to choose.)

Yes, I know I would love to be at home with my son, but seeing as how I’m the ONLY bread-winner in the family right now, it’s not an option. I can’t lose this job! I really want more work to do. My day goes by faster and I feel better about myself and being there when I have work to do. I’m begging you: GIVE ME SOMETHING!

AND they gave her an office with a door (I’m in the middle of a busy room). AND they bought her a new computer, after I had been asking for one since I got there a year ago. AND she gets to go out to lunch with my friend (actually, I love going home to see my boys).

Uh oh. Here comes that jealousy monster again…