Sep 30 2005

Just so freakin’ tired.

I’m sitting at work with absolutely nothing to do this afternoon. I still have an hour here! It’s really very irritating. Why do they keep me here on Friday afternoons? All I do is take up space.

I remember when I worked in the shoe store and times were slow. At least there I could try on shoes for fun or go into the stock room and lie on the floor with my eyes closed for a while. It was nice working in the McKinleyville store because I could jump next door and grab a coffee and cookie to pass the time. I guess I could walk down to the vending machines here, but I don’t really want anything from them and it’s just not the same.

I start to daydream. Right now my daydreams too often turn into arguments or interviews- totally annoying. I’ve been trying to daydream about Cole but it’s just too hard to imagine him yet, even with such a short time left. I start daydreaming about family and my real home but that’s frustrating because I end up missing them so much. I think about trips I might take but I have no money and will shortly have a newborn and so really, what’s the point?

These dead friday afternoons put me in a funk.

It almost makes me wish labor would start just to have something to do.

How about this: Guesses.

Give me your guesses about when Cole will make his entrance, how big he will be, whether I’ll make it through labor without drugs, anything.

*His due date is October 24th. It has never changed. Every time they check his development they say that that date looks good.

*I kind of want to go late. If stubborn mind power has any control over babies and when they come out, he will not be here until after Oct. 27th. I can be a stubborn bitch.

*I’m afraid of needles. No- really afraid. Especially the ones designed to go into my spine.

*He’s big. 7lbs, 6oz as of last Tuesday. Does that mean he could come early? I dunno.

*I have been having “practice” contractions daily. Not too bad yet.

*He hasn’t quite “dropped” but he has definitely been riding lower in the last couple days. When he moves his head I feel like I have to poo even though I don’t. Too much information? Well, you already read it.

*John and I were both over 8 lbs and 20 inches at birth. I am now 5’10″ and John is about 6’1″.

*I’m eating lots of apples and craving a parmesan chicken sandwich with marinara sauce. What does that have to do with anything? I don’t know. Maybe nothing or maybe it’s the key to all the answers…

Go crazy. If more than one person votes I might actually come up with a prize. You won’t have much competition as only about, oh, 5 people read this. (By the way, thanks guys!) Wow. I’m so goddamn popular I just don’t know what to do with myself.


  • By sissy, October 6, 2005 @ 10:33 am

    I think….October 14th or October 22nd. Remember how accurate everyone WASN’T when spencer was born? I think he’s going to be between 7.5-8lbs and looooooonnngg.
    You will hate labor but have good support and you will not use drugs becuase you will not do the needle and you won’t want to take stadol becuase, well, I know you. I had the not-so-lovely poo type feeling a couple of weeks before the time came.
    Any more takers??

  • By heels, October 6, 2005 @ 10:52 am

    Hey, I got his date SPOT ON.

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